Its been a really really long while since I have been doing any blogging here. Have been debating to myself if I should close this blog down since the inital purpose is not arnd anymore as i dun do any blogging nowadays... But then still decided to keep in here as it still contains all the past few years of memories that my loved ones and I had.

This is a letter to someone, someone tt perhaps would never read...

Happy 2010! Time flies... 2 years have passed just like that. Perhaps we think of things too simply and perhaps we really thought that time would not be a problem when the faith remains there. I guess we have underestimated ourselves and we have eventually lost to time.

You are right, in life, sometimes we win sometimes we lose. We thought that just by visits and by letters would be enough to sustain the faith inside us, that nothing will change. Once, we were really connected and I still want to thank you for being the faith of pillar in me for the years. Honestly speaking, I have never really moved for the past years. I have never allowed myself to open up to others completely or have I ever allowed myself to show my real emotions. I thank you for it was you, who made me the more independent and more logical person I am inside of me. It was you who showed me that I am actually stronger than I think I can actually be.

This year, one of my resolution was to move on. It is not because when love is lost or anything, but perhaps at some point of time, I realise that what we are doing is not right. We are tying an invisible string to each other, and this string is cutting into our flesh. This string is the string that is actually hurting us. I still care for you, and I will still think everyday if u are doing okay inside, and if you are having good health or learning new things inside. However, the care that I have for you is more of a friend now. Perhaps at some point of time I realise that this might be the best arrangement that we should have. It is of cos, def not because I have fallen for someone new or anything. Frankly speaking, even if someone were to come along now, I would think alot alot alot even before anything, as I also have no idea if I have anything to offer anyone at this point of time.

I just hope that you will stay optimistic inside, and I believe the pot of rainbow will be waiting for you at the other end. Last but not least, hope that this unsent letter will somehow be transmitted to you. Cheers.