Harlow Blog.. Seems like a beri long time ever since i have updated here... Woo.. And its already week 4 of the semester.. Just spent chinese new year... Now back to sch.. Where all the assignments seems to be pilling up like mountains.. Haha.. Starting to feel the stress of the semester.. Sigh..

Recently i am feel that i dunnoe what i want in life.. In BGR and stuff.. I dunnoe if the decisions tt i am making is correct or not... Will i regret doing this? Will i regret not doing that? Am i really contented with the way things are? I have a lot of questions in my head.. Questions that i also do not have the answer to.. I agree with u, Vin.. That we should just live life everyday to its fullest... In the past, i was mostly the 1 in control, the 1 who gives opinions... But this time, i felt that i have lost to u.. Cos it was the other way arnd.. Now i know how it feels like.. When pple are very clear about what they want, and they just tell u straight to the face... It makes u kinda lost suddenly.. What do i want out of this? Why can't i be as suave as wad i used to do in the past?

Well.. I can onli say.. Sometimes even 2 pple like each other a lot.. They can see past the outer shell and see who u are in ur heart.. Who u are deep inside.. But den it doesn't mean that they will have to be together.. Most pple are afraid that they will hurt the other party if they get too close to the other person.. But den.. Can one really guarantee that even if they dun get close to the other party, the other party will nv get hurt? If this is a form of protection, den it can onli be said to be a form of self assuming.. U may tink that its best for now... But den will u regret not giving ur heart whole to the person? Maybe u would, maybe u wun...

I can onli say.. IN BGR things are very simple actually.. There's no need to see things as though it is so complicated.. It makes things blur at the very end.. That you may 4get wads the most impt thing right from the start.. There's onli like or dun like.. U cannot have the best of everything.. As long as.. You feel u are happy, u are contented.. Perhaps tt is enuff? PPle always say.. I am a simple guy.. Or i am a simple gal.. Yet.. Admit it.. Everyone has expectations in their own ways.. They expect their partner to be in a way or another to meet up to their expectations.. Pple will nv be really contented... They will always want more and more.. They will think of finding a partner for life.. Like wife or soulmate.. They may go in search for the perfect one, that they will just simply miss out pple or things which are more valuable to them.. Right now.. Who can say that they are searching for the perfect wife or husband out there, when they dun even uds the other person tt well?

Well... Guess i was getting frustrated, because my mind is in a whrill.. I am surprisingly not pissed off or anything.. I just had a blank mind.. Cos i din know wad i wanted suddenly.. Do i want something more out of this? Or am i also happy the way things are? Well.. All i can say is.. I hope that pple wun try to stop themselves from getting close to me somehow or another, cos its very sianz to try and stop urself from doing something.. Go for it.. Why matter about the result? At least.. I would know that whatever feelings that i have given out, it would not be given out in a waste.. I'll take back something in return also... In that way... Perhaps we woUld really be able to live life to its fullest.. Trying ur best not to hurt me is actually a hidden form of hurt.. Wad has been given out can nv be taken back.. I onli wish to cherish the present times i can spend with u.. Whether it be happy or sad.. I onli hope to be someone who can stand by me, and someone whom i can stand by.. Giving each other support until the time.. When time's up.. At least when i do let go eventually... I know we have been connected somehow or another in a way... = ) U understand?

Conclusion.. The key element is still happiness.. If u feel that u are already very happy with the way things are.. Why think so much? Just go for it..!! In life.. A lot of things can nv be turned back.. Once u missed it, that's it.. As long as you feel happy and contented when u are with that person.. Isn't it enuff? Some pple search all their lives.. To find someone they can be happy and contented with... But they can nv find the one.. U dun seek for happiness... Happiness comes seeking for you.. = )